Showing posts with label Trash. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Trash. Show all posts

Thursday, November 16, 2017

222. The Akashi lady






Genji

Sorry for the prolonged delay, but I'm now up-to-date with my HOA duties. So back to Genji. 

Genji is in exile in a little house on the coast. There was a torrent of farewell poetry between himself and all his young ladies before he rode off in the night. Even now it seems to be primarily the new emperor's mother who hates him.

But the poor man can't even throw himself into exile on a deserted shore (not really) without attracting attention, this time in the form of the former governor,

p271 "I hear that the shining Genji is out of favor," he said to his wife, "and that he has come to Suma. What a rare stroke of luck -- the chance we have been waiting for. We must offer our girl."

"Completely out of the question. People from the city tell me that he has any number of fine ladies of his own and that he has reached out for one of the emperor's. [Oborozukiyo] That is why the scandal. What interest can he possibly take in a country lump like her?"

...

"...it hardly seems the right and sensible thing to choose of all people a man who has been sent into exile for a serious crime... You must be joking."


p272 "A serious crime! Why in China too exactly this sort of thing happens to every single person who has remarkable talents and stands out from the crowd..."


Though the girl was no great beauty, she was intelligent and sensitive and had a gentle grace of which someone of far higher rank would have been proud. She was reconciled to her sad lot. No one among the great persons of the land was likely to think her worth a glance. The prospect of marrying someone nearer her station in life revolted her. If she was left behind by those on whom she depended, she would become a nun, or perhaps throw herself into the sea.

...

This doesn't immediately lead anywhere. Very odd.


Time for a tale of trash. (I've been wondering if they've considered re-titling Genji, "The Adventures of the Horn-dog Pervert, Genji" to sell more books?) 

For the past month (or longer) a scavenger has been coming into my alley early Monday mornings to go through all our trash -- both my building's and the trash of two other buildings that go out the same time, and he's going through both the recycling -- and the landfill and leaving a mess behind. I get up around 6am and pick up what was left on the paving and re-sort everything for the pick-up an hour or two later. This morning I went out and talked to the Recology guy about our options: We could put locks on the recycling, but there are ways around this; we could get the trash picked-up earlier, except that we can't because the idiots on the corner have already forced them to delay until around 7am because their sleep was being disturbed. The final option is to keep at least the recycling locked-up inside until Recology arrives. So that's what I'm going to try next week. 

This is a nuisance, but so is the new status quo. If I continue to hear the guy going through everyone else's stuff, I can just wait until he's done and then pull our recycling up and clean-up. I may end up doing this with our landfill, too. The only real problem would be if I slept through the scavenger and Recology. That would be awkward.

In a way, I'm more upset with our residents than with the scavenger. He's pulling things out of the landfill that should be in the recycling. Yesterday happened to be the day when I tossed the tortilla chip bag that holds my landfill waste for a month. If everyone would just sort their damn trash there would be almost nothing in the landfill toter to make a mess with.

End rant.


The Akashi lady
We do return to the old governor and his daughter, or as I'm starting to think of it, the "...a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife" story-line.

p297 After the girl is unable to bring herself to respond to Genji's first note, He got off another message the next day, beautifully written on soft, delicate paper. "I am not accustomed to receiving letters from the ladies' secretaries.

      "Unwillingly reticent about my sorrows

       I still must be -- for no one makes inquiry.

      Thought it was difficult to say just what I mean."


There would have been something unnatural about a girl who refused to be interested in such a letter. She thought it splendid, but she also thought it impossibly out of her reach. Notice from such supreme heights had the perverse effect of reducing her to tears and inaction.


She was finally badgered into setting something down. She chose delicately perfumed lavender paper and took great care with the gradations of her ink.


      "Unwittingly reticent -- how can it be so?

       How can you sorrow for someone you have not met?"

The diction and the handwriting would have done credit to any of the fine ladies at court. He fell into a deep reverie, for he was reminded of days back in the city. But he did not want to attract attention, and presently shook it off.


Genji finally "visits" the girl.

p304 Genji called in secret from time to time. The two houses being some distance apart, he feared being seen by fishermen, who were known to relish a good rumor, and sometimes several days would elapse between his visits. Exactly as she had expected, thought the girl. Her father, forgetting that enlightenment was his goal, quite gave his prayers over to silent queries as to when Genji might be expected to come again; and so (and it seems a pity) a tranquility very laboriously attained was disturbed at a very late date.

Genji dreaded having Murasaki learn of the affair. He still loved her more than anyone, and he did not want her to make even joking references to it. She was a quiet, docile lady, but she had more than once been unhappy with him. Why, for the sake of brief pleasure, had he caused her pain He wished it were all his to do over again. The sight of the Akashi lady only brought new longing for the other lady.


I've taken a break here (creating my HOA's pro forma budget for next year is always a trying task -- mostly because I forget from one year to the next many of the complications. Also, I wanted to take some time with this next section as it gets interesting. I started out saying that this was not a feminist screed, but now I'm having to wonder what kind of agenda our author does have. I've alluded to P&P before, and, as with Jane Austen, it seems that Murasaki Shikibu is telling this particular story for a reason. Even if her writing is free of words of judgment, the care she is taking to tell this story of the provincial girl of an undistinguished family, and the motivation of her parents, is suggestive. (It would not have surprised me if Jane Austen had read this, but I'm informed that nothing was translated into English until the 1880s.)

still p304 He got off a more earnest and affectionate letter than usual, at the end of which he said: "I am in anguish at the thought that, because of foolish occurrences for which I have been responsible but have had little heart, I might appear in a guise distasteful to you. There has been a strange, fleeting encounter. That I should volunteer this story will make you see, I hope, how little I wish to have secrets from you. Let the gods be my judges.

       "It was but the fisherman's brush with the salty sea pine
        Followed by a tide of tears of longing."

Her reply was gentle and unreproachful...


p305 ...he found it hard to put down, and for some nights he stayed away from the house in the hills.


The Akashi lady was convinced once more that her fears had become actuality. Now seemed the time to throw herself into the sea. She had had no ambitions for herself, no thought of making a respectable marriage. Yet the years had gone by happily enough, without storms or tears. Now she saw that the world can be very cruel. She managed to conceal her worries, however, and to do nothing that might annoy Genji. He was more and more pleased with her as time went by.

...

Both the new emperor and his mother (Genji's enemy) are ill. The emperor takes advantage of his mother being indisposed to summon his half brother, Genji back to the city.

p306 Genji had been sure that a pardon would presently come, but he also knew that life is uncertain. That it should come so soon was of course pleasing. At the same time the thought of leaving this Akashi coast filled him with regret. The old monk, [the lady's father] though granting that it was most proper and just, was upset at the news. he managed all the same to tell himself that Genji's prosperity was in his own best interest. Genji visited the lady every night and sought to console her. From about the Sixth Month she had shown symptoms such as to make their relations more complex. A sad, ironical affair seemed at the same time to come to a climax and to disintegrate. He wondered at the perverseness of fates that seemed always to be bringing surprises. The lady, and one could scarcely have blamed her, was sunk in the deepest gloom. Genji... now lamented that he would not see this Akashi again.

...sad thoughts accosted Genji. Why, now and long ago, had he abandoned himself, heedlessly but of his own accord, to random, profitless affairs of the heart?


p307 "What a great deal of trouble he does cause," said those who knew the secret. "The same thing all over again. For almost a year he didn't tell anyone and he didn't seem to care the first thing about her. And now just when he ought to be letting well enough alone he makes things worse."

...

Two days before his departure Genji visited his lady, setting out earlier than usual. This first really careful look at her revealed an astonishingly proud beauty. He comforted her with promises that he would choose an opportune time to bring her to the city. I shall not comment again upon his own good looks. He was thinner from fasting, and emaciation seemed to add the final touches to the picture. He made tearful vows. The lady replied in her heart that this small measure of affection was all she wanted and deserved, and that his radiance only emphasized her own dullness. The waves moaned in the autumn winds, the smoke from the salt burners' fires drew faint lines across the sky, and all the symbols of loneliness seemed to gather together.


      "Even though we now must part for a time,

       The smoke from these briny fires will follow me."

      "Smoldering thoughts like the sea grass burned on these

        shores.
       And what good now to ask for anything more?"

She fell silent, weeping softly, and a rather conventional poem seemed to say a great deal.


She had not, through it all, played for him on the koto of which he had heard so much.


p308 "Do let me hear it. Let it be a memento."


Sending for the seven-string koto he had brought from the city, he played an unusual strain, quiet but wonderfully clear on the midnight air. Unable to restrain himself, the old man pushed a thirteen-stringed koto toward his daughter. She was apparently in a mood for music... He had thought Fujitsubo's playing quite incomparable. It was in the modern style, and enough to bring cries of wonder from anyone who knew a little about music. For him it was Fujitsubo herself, the essence of all her delicate awareness. The koto of the lady before him was quiet and calm, and so rich in overtones as almost to arouse envy. She left off playing just as the connoisseur who was her listener had passed the first stages of surprise and become eager attention. Disappointment and regret succeeded pleasure. He had been here for nearly a year. Why had he not insisted that she play for him, time after time? All he could do now was repeat the old vows.


"Take this koto," he said, "to remember me by. Someday we will play together."


Her reply was soft and almost casual:


      "One heedless word, one koto, to set me at rest.

       In the sound of it the sound of my weeping, forever."

He could not let it pass.


      "Do not change the middle string of this koto.

       Unchanging I shall be till we meet again.

p309"And we will meet again before it has slipped out of    

           tune."

Yet it was not unnatural that the parting should seem more real than the reunion.

...

[After Genji is gone] p311 Her mother tried everything to console her. "What could we have been thinking of? You have such odd ideas," she said to her husband, "and I should have been more careful."


"Enough, enough. There are reasons why he cannot abandon her... Stop worrying, mix yourself a dose of something or other. This wailing will do no good." But he was sitting disconsolate in a corner.

...

p319 [I really thought she was going somewhere else with this story of the Akashi lady and her scheming family, but now Genji is back on top of the world and, after hearing of the birth of his first daughter, we get this piece of new information,] "You will have three children," a fortuneteller had once told him. "Two of them are certain to become emperor and empress. The least of the three will become chancellor, the most powerful man in the land" The whole of the oracle seemed by way of coming true.

...

The new emperor has abdicated in favor of the Reizei emperor whose mother is Fujitsubo and 
whose father is actually Genji. Yugiri, his other son with his actual wife, is now serving as page to both the emperor (his half brother) and the crown prince. Which would make the daughter of the Akashi lady the future empress.

p324 He had said little to Murasaki of the events at Akashi... "And that would seem to be the situation," he said, concluding his account. "Somehow everything has gone wrong. I don't have children where I really want them, and now there is a child in a very unlikely place. And it is a girl. I could of course simply disown her, but that is the sort of thing I do not seem capable of. I will bring her here one of these days and let you have a look at her. You are not to be jealous, now."

Murasaki flushed. "How strange you are. You make me dislike myself, constantly assigning traits which are not mine at all. When and by whom, I wonder, shall I begin to have lessons in jealousy?"


Genji smiled, and tears came to his eyes. "When indeed, pray. You are very odd, my dear. Things come into your mind that would not occur to anyone else." 

...

He told her of the lines of smoke across the Akashi sky that last evening, and, though with some understatement, perhaps, of the lady's appearance and of her skill on the koto. And so while she herself had been lost in infinite sadness, thought Murasaki, he had managed to keep himself entertained. It did not seem right that he should have allowed himself even a playful glance at another woman.


If he had his ways, she would have hers. She looked aside, whispering as if to herself: "There was a time when we seemed rather a nicely matched couple.


      "I think I shall be the first to rise as smoke,

       And it may not go the direction of that other."

"What a very unpleasant thing to say.


      "For whom, in mountains, upon unfriendly seas, 

       Has the flow of my tears been such as to sweep me 
       under?

"I wish you could understand me, but of course it is not the way of the world that we are ever completely understood. I would not care or complain except for the fact that I do so love you."


He took out a koto and tuned it and pushed it towards her; but, perhaps somewhat displeased at his account of the other lady's talents, she refused to touch it. She was a calmly, delightfully gentle lady, and these small outbursts of jealousy were interesting, these occasional shows of anger charming. Yes, he thought, she was someone he could be with always.
...

p326 The old man's face [the Akashi lady's father] was a twisted shell once more [after seeing the gifts Genji sends for his daughter's fiftieth-day celebration], this time, more properly, with joy. Very elaborate preparations had been made for the fiftieth-day ceremonies, but had these envoys not come from Genji they would have been like brocades worn in the night. [Footnote: The Shih Chi informs us that to be rich and powerful and not to display that fact in one's native village is to wear brocades in pitch darkness.]


...The Akashi lady began to think herself important for having had something to do with the little memento he had left behind. The nurse [Genji carefully selected and sent to her after flirting a bit] saw Genji's letter [to the lady]. What extraordinary good fortune the lady did have, she had been thinking, and how unlucky she had been herself; and Genji's inquiries made her feel important too...


[Thanks to a spell of rain, Genji has time to finally visit another of his ladies, the lady of the orange blossoms] 

p329 Her soft voice, trailing off into silence, was very pleasing. He sighed, almost wishing it were not the case that each of his ladies had something to recommend her. It made for a most complicated life...

Amazingly, we now jump immediately back to the Rokujo lady, who is ailing and enlists Genji to look after her daughter's interests (without his having thoughts not becoming a parent, she is wise enough to add.) This Genji is trying to do, which leads to palace intrigue involving Genji and Fujitsubo pushing Akikonomu (the Rokyjo lady's daughter) on the new emperor (still a child) while keeping her away from the recently abdicated Suzaku emperor (feeling much better now, thanks for asking) who has been courting her for some time. 

The competition to mate the new emperor turns into yet another competition between Genji and his boyhood chum and opponent. Genji carries all before his (as always) but the outcome is left open as to the particulars.

p359 Genji has a strong sense of history and wanted this to be one of the ages when things begin... it was an exciting time.

But he was also obsessed with evanescence. He was determined to withdraw from public affairs when the emperor was a little older. Every precedent told him that men who rise to rank and power beyond their years cannot expect long lives. Now, in this benign reign, perhaps by way of compensation for the years of sorrow and disgrace, Genji had an abundance, indeed a plethora, of rank and honor. Further glory could only bring uncertainty. He wanted to withdraw quietly and make preparations for the next life, and so add to his years in this one. He had purchased a quiet tract off in a mountain village and was putting up a chapel and collecting images and scriptures. But first he must see that no mistake was made in educating his children. So it was that his intentions remained in some doubt.


The End


...but not really. It turns out this abridged edition only included twelve of the first seventeen chapters. Out of fifty-four. So this is really just getting started.

I'm now back to the Introduction, that I couldn't read at the beginning because I didn't know enough. (And I'm copying this stuff for the second time as my Chromebook ran out of memory yesterday and lost everything I copied. The moral being, restart your Chromebook every week or so even if it seems like you don't need to.)

p ix Precise information about Murasaki Shikibu is equally scant. We do not know her personal name, though scholars have delighted in speculating upon it. In Heian Japan it was bad manners to record the names of wellborn ladies, except, curiously, imperial consorts and princesses of the blood. Of the sobriquet by which she is known today, the second half, Shikibu, designates an office held by her father. Murasaki may derive either from the name of an important lady in the Genji itself or from the fact that it means "purple,"... ...her branch of the [Fujiwara] family had by the time of her birth fallen to the second level of court aristocracy. Her father occupied modest positions in the capital and twice served as a provincial governor.

p x Provincial governors are generally treated with contempt in The Tale of Genji. Their layer of the aristocracy did more for the literature of the day than any other... [All this reminds me, again, of Jane Austen, with Murasaki being most familiar with the world of provincial governors while Austen was most familiar with the world of vicars.] 

...

She went to court, in the service of the empress Akiko or Shoshi, sometime around the middle of the first decade of the eleventh century... 

...

p xi The action of the Genji covers almost three quarters of a century. The first forty-one chapters have to do with the life and loves of the nobleman known as "the shining Genji,"...

...

p xii Murasaki Shikibu had a rich tradition of Chinese historical writing and Chinese and Japanese lyric poetry to draw on. As for prose fiction, she had little more than the beginnings the Japanese themselves had made in the tenth century... ...little in them seems to anticipate the appearance of a romance which is more than a romance, in that it shows believable people in real situations. When romancers of the tenth century attempt characterization, and it is of a rudimentary sort, they write fairy stories; and when they write of such matters as court intrigues, the characterization is so flat that it can hardly be called characterization at all. The diaries of the tenth century may perhaps have been something of an inspiration for Murasaki Shikibu, but the awareness that an imagined predicament can be made more real than a real one required a great leap of the imagination, and Murasaki Shikibu made it by herself...


...it may be difficult to imagine a single genius building so much on so light a foundation; but it is almost impossible to imagine a second genius taking over... The historical fact is that whoever wrote the Genji had no successors, and so the theory of mass genius has very little to support it. Later romances are by comparison rather poor stuff...

...

p xiv We may think of the novel as the form of prose narrative in which the emphasis is upon characterization rather than upon plot -- on believable characters in believable relationships. If this definition is accepted, then the Genji is a very good novel indeed, the best one the Japanese have produced down to modern times. The characterization is remarkably vivid even in the early chapters... Large numbers of characters are kept distinct from one another with remarkable skill.


[That bit about characterization reminds me of my preference for Austen and Martha Grimes primarily on that basis.]


p xv When the Genji is compared with Proust in this regard, and the comparison has long been popular, it seems apt. In other respects the two are far apart, and the Genji reveals its Japanese origins. It is loosely constructed and inconclusive, and it is strongly lyrical, especially in its treatment of nature and the fusion of man and place and season, of foreground and background...

...

p xvii A final word: the reader may be discouraged to learn that the tale gets better as it goes along, and that later chapters are often better than the ones included here...


There's a great deal more about the difficulty of translation, which seems to be a two step process -- first you translate into something a modern Japanese person could understand, then you translate that into English. This makes sense as Murasaki is centuries earlier than Shakespeare, for example. 

And now we are done.

The reason I did all this in one post is that I've started reading Reflections on Violence by Georges Sorel and I want to start getting into that soon... it's going to be a bumpy ride.



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Sunday, June 25, 2017

164. The Road to Character


Previous - 162. It's been a while


Sports!

Back by no demand.

As usual, I'm writing not as the normal fan but in response to something remarkable. Our local basketball team, the Warriors, are in the Finals for the third straight year against the same other team -- the Cleveland Cavaliers. They won in 2015. They suffered a painful loss in 2016. Now they're doing "best 2 out of 3." 

After the loss in the seventh game last year, the team when out and acquired one of the best players in basketball to fill the "three" position where they had been weakest. (Confusingly, the three position is also known as "small forward" but Kevin Durant, the new three is one of the taller players on the court.) KD, as he is commonly referred to, got an amazing amount of criticism for leaving his previous team, the competitive Oklahoma City Thunder, where he had been one of the two core stars. At GSW (Golden State Warriors), he is one of the four core stars -- if you can describe all but one of the starters as a "core." This is now an All-Star team at virtually every position except the five (center.) But the five is where it gets interesting for me. But let's stick with KD for a moment.

The notion that an athlete should make employment decisions based on preserving competitiveness in the league is odd. I can't imagine anyone actually doing that. The league might come up with rules that have that effect, but the player is always going to do what seems to be in his own best interest. In this case, KD seems to have believed that joining GSW would give him the best chance of getting a ring (winning a Championship) while also making him a better player by helping him improve on defense -- a strength of GSW. 

And, listening to the analysis of the first two games which GSW have won decisively, what you most hear is what a revelation KD's play on defense has been. Nearly everyone says something like, "We all knew he was one of the best scorers in basketball but the way he is dominating as a defender is something new." And when the commentators are players -- either retired or stars who's teams have already been eliminated -- they are clear that the reason for KD's excellence is that on his new team he isn't expected to do everything himself. Surrounded by players who also excel at defense, he can do more with less. 

His decision to join GSW is looking more and more like the no-brainer I always thought it was. Any player with his talent would have been a fool not to have made the decision to join what is generally accepted to be the best run team in the league.

And that brings us to the five position. To sign KD GSW had to part ways with all the players who had previously played center for them and to acquire new players at mostly bargain basement salaries. David West was an experienced older player who cared more about a shot at a ring than money. JaVale McGee had become a joke for his absentminded play and GSW signed him on an almost "what the hell, we'll give him a look" whim. Both of these players, along with the wonderfully named Zaza Pachulia, have managed to find ways to contribute to GSW's success and JaVale has even become a fan favorite for his enthusiastic play. While GSW is now much stronger at the three because of KD, it seems to be largely overlooked how much stronger they are at the five with these new members of the team.

And there are some younger players who've found ways to contribute. The world may see the Warriors as four All-Stars, but the role players -- older or new to the league -- are an important part of the picture. When GSW is dominating a game at the end of the third quarter, they can put in their reserves who almost always can hold their own, giving the starters time to rest for much of the final quarter. 

The other thing about this team is that they have a lot of fun, which is fun to watch. 

Thanks to my delay in publishing this, GSW has now gone to win the championship four games vs one loss. KD was the unanimous selection for Most Valuable Player in the series. 



The Road to Character by David Brooks

Random House 2015

Chapter four is about Dorothy Day who is explained in terms of the "Dostoyevskan" vs the "Tolstoyan". This must require a familiarity with these authors that goes beyond The Brothers Karamazov and Anna Karenina -- the only novels I've read recently -- because this makes no sense to me. 

While there is something of Levin to Day -- her determined seeking after some greater truth and more supportive life -- I would just stick with a comparison with the Karamazov boys. She seems to be a curious mix of Dmitri and Alyosha. But mostly Dmitri. She is what Dmitri dreams of becoming while locked up at the end of the novel. And just as he doubts his ability to really change his life, Day never really seems to find the peace she keeps seeking. Ivan would tear her to pieces... and this despite her being familiar with his Grand Inquisitor.

What she actually reminds me of, even more than a Karamazov, is a heroin addict. She is always in need of support even as that support grows less effective. Even if she switched to methadone, and became a determined methadonian, she would need occasionally to add some real heroin to the mix. 

What I can't see is her putting herself in the hands of an Elder. Her's seems to have been a very self-willed life of "obedience, servitude, and self-surrender" and sacrifice. I'm self-willed, too, but I'm not trying to turn my life over to God. 


Yesterday I worked the Sikh Parade and Festival here. Aside from the distinctive dress, it was similar to many other events we work, with lots of food generating lots of (mostly compost) waste. By chance, it was a cold and windy day and, after we had secured our eco-station trash boxes to trees to prevent them blowing away, we were informed that wasn't allowed. So rather than doing my usual roving sorting of a bunch of busy stations, I was stuck at one station (that looked to be the busiest) as I was both monitoring the station and preventing it from blowing away. We had to have a person at each un-secured station -- which meant there weren't enough people to do roving sorting in other areas, and those stations (the ones I had put up, as it happens) got completely trashed.

But why this is going here is that unlike Dorothy Day, I realized while standing at my station for most of the day, correcting the sorting mistakes of the crowd, I do what I do because of the WORK not because of the people. 

I would say she was motivated by her own need to help others, rather than their need. This works well for both parties as the people being "helped" often have no interest in changing, which means the "helpers" will never run out of people to enable, I mean "help."

But let's say I'm wrong about that. Maybe God really loves these people whose lives he has fucked up and God, the helper, and the helpee (?) all benefit from these good works. My motivation is quite different. There are two different ways of looking (justifying) what I do, but neither of them has anything to do with people exactly.

My goal when I work an event is to divert as much waste from the landfill as possible. (Also, to keep the event working smoothly, which means no over-flowing trash containers.) If I ever thought you could educate people (and especially vendors) to do their own sorting, it was a long time ago. I will explain as much as I can to the public (and the vendors) because it's part of my job, and I think I'm pretty good at it. But I don't expect them to give a shit. I'm more interested in getting the compost and recycling out than in transforming the crowd into environmentalists. My job satisfaction comes from looking at well sorted dumpsters at the end of the day. That's the first aspect of "the work."

Unfortunately, just as in my coding and technical writing career, I don't have complete control over the fate of my work. I've heard about the composting facilities where our dumpsters of food and paper get sent to, but I've never visited one and don't know how good of a job they really do. I don't even know for sure that all our dumpsters get sent there. And at some events I bag but don't dump the bags into the dumpsters, so, despite my bag labeling, all I can say is that I've done a super job of collecting a well sorted bag (usually of compost.) 

Just as some of my best coding and best writing was for projects I either didn't care about or that were aborted before completion, I'm still satisfied with my work when the actual diversion rate falls short of what I would have hoped for, due to circumstances. 

Of course, Dorothy Day and Mother Teresa may have felt the same way about their work.


Apotheosis
p102 Finally reading the end of the section of Dorothy Day and we're explicitly into how she, in the 1960s, was opposed both to the "bourgeois culture of commerce" and the "bohemian culture... [of] self-gratification." 

p103 Day's life... was about the surrender of self and ultimately the transcendence of self... Through The Long Loneliness and her other writings she practiced a sort of public confession... Day's confessions were theological, too. Her attempts to understand herself and humanity were really efforts to understand God.
...

p104 [Shortly before she died to Robert Coles] ...I was going to try to make a summary [of her life] for myself, write what mattered most -- but I couldn't do it. I just sat there and thought of our Lord, His visit to us all those centuries ago, and I said to myself that my great luck was to have had Him on my mind for so long in my life!


Coles wrote, "I heard the catch in her voice as she spoke, and soon her eyes were a little most, but she quickly started talking of her great love for Tolstoy..."


I need to add something here from earlier in the chapter,

p79 She protested on behalf of the working classes. But the most vital dramas of her life were going on inside. She had become an even more avid reader, especially of Tolstoy and Dostoyevsky (sic). 

It's hard now to recapture how seriously people took novel reading then, or at least how seriously Day and others took it -- reading important works as wisdom literature, believing that supreme artists possessed insights that could be handed down as revelation, trying to mold one's life around the heroic and deep souls one found in books. Day read as if her whole life depended upon it.


...Day was "moved to the depths of my being" by Dostoyevsky...
 

Maybe I should re-title my blog, "Wisdom Literature." Maybe the author chose to focus on the Russians (this chapter really does assume a good deal from the reader), but I'm surprised she wasn't also influenced by The Magic Mountain, though that may have been too dry and cerebral. It's Father Zossima, not Ivan or Alyosha that attracted her in The Brothers Karamazov. A quick search on "Dorothy Day" and "The Magic Mountain" doesn't reveal much.

Do Millennials (or Gen Y or even Gen X) read novels the same way we did? Since "we" was a tiny fraction of my (and previous) generations, I suspect there are still some people who do. I think fiction is a perfectly reasonable way to do philosophy and a better than average way to expose others to philosophy. And it even is educational in two directions, the author has to consider what will attract an audience. I'm surprised The Magic Mountain was as influential as it was, but it's obvious why people read Tolstoy and Dostoevsky, and metaphysics was the least of it. 

Neighborhood characters

There's this small, older but not elderly, woman who is almost always walking, standing, or sitting somewhere on the three blocks of the street just below my building. She's probably a couple inches shorter than she started out, and I have a morbid curiosity to see what an X-ray of her spine would look like. The reason I notice her is that she is always smoking. I'm also curious as to whether she is on the street to smoke or if smoking just gives her something to do as she roams these blocks. I'm pretty sure she lives in a building in about the middle of her range, but that's just because I most frequently see her there.

If I were the police -- and if I really cared about neighborhood policing -- I would be on good terms with her since she probably sees everything that happens on that section of street.


The second character I see much less frequently, only when I go to my second favorite pizzeria (this is not based on the quality of the pizza, neither my first nor second pizzerias have particularly good pizza). She seems to spend most of her time in this restaurant which she treats as her home. She opens and closes windows to suit herself. She makes them change what's on the TV to suit herself. She seems "personable" and knows everyone's name, but she drives me nuts and if I worked there I would poison her.

And she's both loud and chatty, which is why I've left the pizzeria and am finishing this at Starbuck's.


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Monday, August 1, 2016

6. The East Bay


Previous - Transbay Transit Center


But first...

Back in 1992 I had an idea for a movie. Over the years I've had lots of "ideas" for movies but this one was different, for one thing I plotted it out scene by scene and even wrote it all down -- someplace. But just now the idea came back to me and, 24 years later, I still have the whole thing in my head. All the connections and character overlaps... the whole thing.

I'm no more likely to do something with it now than I was then, (for one thing the idea built on two movies that had recently come out and the context was important to the surprising place the story was to go), but that something as ephemeral as an imagined movie can hang around in your head for so long really surprises me. 

Oakland 

Oakland, not San Francisco, really should be the first city of Northern California. The transportation connections are much better. The weather is better. There's more room to expand. True, it is sitting on a fault that is due to cut loose at any moment, but that's not the kind of thing we hold against a city here in California.

On Friday I took the train to Oakland and then transferred to a bus to go up in the hills to the surprising location of a lawyer's office. I'm in Oakland so infrequently that when I do pass through I really see it. The area between Broadway (downtown) and Lake Merritt seems to have been redeveloped during those ghastly (for redevelopment) decades after the war. The scale is wrong for cities but right for "California." The message the built environment is sending is "we all have cars now so let's spread out."

I rode the bus about half way to Piedmont (an enclave of wealth in the Oakland hills) and walked a convenient block to the lawyer's office in a great old house. The house across the street was a grand old Victorian stripped down, but not as brutally as you sometimes see. You really had to look before you notice there must once have been much more decorative trim. The vent duct sticking out the second floor turret wall facing the street is an unfortunate addition, but I bet the wall heater or, better, stove in that bedroom is a wonderful addition on rainy winter nights. It would have made much more sense to have set the TV show Charmed here rather than in SF. Here houses really do have front, back and side yards.

The lawyers house is a completely different California look: Stucco walls and arched windows. More rambling and not as tall. There's even a citrus tree just outside the conference room window. These streets are closer to Pasadena than SF.

The only time I worked in Oakland (in my coding days, I mean) we were located in an even grander house than this right on Lake Merritt. It was wonderful, though a long walk from the train, until it caught fire and we had to move to a more conventional office in another neighborhood. 

Berkeley 

This weekend I worked both days of the Berkeley Kite Festival. The setting is wonderful. Caesar Chavez Park sits atop an old landfill in San Francisco Bay. It's connected to Berkeley by a causeway. You might be thinking this is a flat park, but it is anything but. There are hills. It has had many years to become "natural." So natural, in fact, that they've had to start a program to exterminate the burrowing animals that were disturbing the seal that separates the bay from all the tons of waste under the park.

The festival itself is quite spectacular with huge kites and experts flying kites in formation and kite fights. (Do a Google Image search.) But on the hills overlooking the main venue and to the north, just behind the row of food vendors, there are hundreds of people putting on their own show with their own kites. Many are as spectacular as the ones featured in the event.

Normally our home base is wherever they leave the giant debris boxes (dumpsters), but the City of Berkeley pays their (union rate) sanitation people to man a couple conventional garbage trucks and haul the bags of waste we sort to the trucks. (Until the end when they drive the trucks through the event and pick up anything that remains.) 

The trucks -- and therefore our home base -- are located in a saddle between two areas of hills. Looking west from that vantage point you see across the bay past Alcatraz to the Golden Gate and its bridge. I stress the Gate and not the bridge because the weather here (the micro climate) is determined by the wind and fog blowing directly through the Gate. North and south it might be sunny and warm but here it is often foggy, cold, and very windy. Hence a great location for a kite festival. 

I tend to get really wrapped up in my work so I can be oblivious to my surroundings, but I really do try to pay attention -- especially in Golden Gate Park and here on the Bay (Treasure Island is even better). Every time I would climb the slope up to our home base I would see the stunning vista of the Bay with SF's skyline to the south and the hills of Angel Island and Marin to the north. And then I would turn around (looking down wind) and see the sky (often blue on Sunday) full of colorful kites.

And then I would go back into the crowd to sort down a badly contaminated three container (compost, recycling, landfill) trash station only to have someone toss their plate full of food into the landfill container I had just cleaned out, and I would want to drag that person to the bay (by the hair or the junk) and drown them... slowly.


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